ending_on_this' Journal

1:06am: thats right, i said it.
fuckadoodledoo.

9:18pm: hmmmm.
since you were gone, i've become a very big deal.

3:10am: bore me
so one more time.
makes no sense.
falling foward.
stepping backward.
time will tell.
show your secret
feverish pace again.
makes you sick.
makes me wonder.
makes you wonder.
makes us wonder why.
this world is moving on.
with or with out you.
cause nobody cared anyhow.
your problem.
is still your problem .
is your problem.
snd nobody cared anyhow.
and nobody cares anyhow.
so suck it up.
toughen up.
get it straight.
better get it right.
get your story right.
because nobody cared anyhow.
your problems.
your pills.
your anxiety.
your fears.
your hopes.
your beers.
nobody cares anyhow.
we all want to live.
and nobody cares anyhow.
we all want to be the one whos heard
nobody cares anyhow.
and somewhere now.
somebody is nervous
and nobody cares
nobody cares what you do,
and nobody cared anyhow.
so one last time.
it will make you sick
and nobody cared
nobody wants
nobody needs
nobody fucking cares anyhow


about you.

11:42pm: shika shika
well i stood infront of a walmart for 20 hours in the cold for a raincheck that guarantees me a 60 gb ps3 within 3 weeks.

but im a little annoyed.

everybody in line except for me and one other person had absolulely no intention of playing the damn thing....

they are selling it on ebay... even my own mother!!!!!..

granted its good money, but why screw kids outa a ps3 on launch day.

point is, people who bougth a ps3 just to sell it, are evil.

have some damn sense.

5:14pm: GET OVER HERE!!!!!!!!!
rented new MK... 60 fighters.... opening video is pretty sweet....zombie lui-kang!

one word.


scorpion.

1:55pm: hmmmmm
started playing WoW.....


im an undead warlock and i want meh flaming warhorse ......


ill post server specifics later...


dont know em off the top of meh head.


worky worky worky...


got paid today..

woot.


got to gaming class 20 mins late... still finished todays thing first.. and it actually worked.. cuz im awesome-o

11:46am: 3 hours, 6 preachers and a seizure later......
when to the longest funeral ever yesterday.. subject line about sums it up.

towards the very end of the three hour funeral a diabetic man had a seizure, as bad as that was the funeral pressed on.. come hell or high water we were getting through that service.


and i come to realize black funeral are a bit different.....


kind of a church service( and an entertaining one at that) with a casket in front with the occasionsal refference to the person in said casket.


im not making fun of black people, dead people, funerals, caskets, church services, seizures, diabetics, or anything like that.


i can only hope my funeral is as cool and happy as the one i whent to yesterday.


all funerals should be a celebration of life.

be sent off with clapping and singing.

woot.


im at work with 4 hours down and 3 to go.

watching office space and kingdom of heavin is next on the list.

nap time after work , then dinner with some more napping after.

and im out.

4:51pm: i swear by almighty god i will leave their whole block full of hot brass!!!!
worky worky worky...



rude people on the phone... like i cant see what room they are calling from on the caller ID.



n00bs, its whats for dinner

4:12pm: hmmmmmm
my paycheck will be fat.


as will my wallet.


how will i sit right?



working desk.... again.



eeeeyyyaaaa bitch!

11:15am: and there will be midget clowns and we will be happy!!!!
yes... another sunday morning behind front desk....


_money-


mmmm money.


ive never been so entertained watching somebody get tazed....



_grahm crackers and coke-



w00t.



_pwnage-

9:40pm: guitar loser.
got guitar hero today.



yeah its kicking my ass good and hard.


_sticks to easy-



mmm easy.

12:50am: hmmmm
josh is a RA now.

woot.

2:06am:

12:36am: middle finger is the flag that i wave when im -silence-

12:59am: ShInEdOwN
"Trade Yourself In"

Deal with me
Don't even think about leaving yet
I'm not a part of some false regret
Even though I believe in fables
Come reset
A part of life that you'd soon forget
And maybe think about who you hurt
In the process

I don't think they know, that's my heart exposed
From the fearing of the endless lies

Trade yourself in for the perfect one
No one needs to know that you feel you've been ruined
Trade yourself in for diamond eyes
Watch the stars collide as you're lifted from your burden

You see me
And you know I am not the same
Can't pretend to just fake a smile
Cause you know I feel every ounce of
Pain combined
With the loss of a youthful mind
You need to look at what you've become
And try to figure out where you came from

I don't think they know, that's my heart exposed
From the fearing of the endless lies

Trade yourself in for the perfect one
No one needs to know that you feel you've been ruined
Trade yourself in for diamond eyes
Watch the stars collide as you're lifted from your burden

I know you can't feel a thing
It hurts to feel anymore

Trade yourself in for the perfect one
No one needs to know that you feel you've been ruined
Trade yourself in for diamond eyes
Watch the stars collide as you're lifted from your burden
Trade yourself in for the perfect one
No one needs to know that you feel you've been ruined
Trade yourself in for diamond eyes
Watch the stars collide as you're lifted from your burden

8:45pm: yep.
well....

yeah.

2:26am: hahahahah
the boondocks quote " pimp my ride!!! *tear* for my grandpa!!! for 9-11!!! * tear tear* for america!!!!"

8:04pm: well.
and i cant change my ways, sorry its my fault, wasnt there to see whatever you became....

1:55am: well thats new,
today i got kicked into a christmas tree.

11:16pm: yep.
im gonna hide in my closet so i dont gotta move back to midland

1:27am: yip
got the best of : fuel album tonight.. good stuff.. forgot how much i like hemorrhage...


ack..after tonight i miss amy.


*pout*

12:23am: hehehehe
me talking to david from midland.


vote4dukakis88 (12:21:18 AM): Hey
screwtchildone (12:21:38 AM): stfu
vote4dukakis88 (12:21:55 AM): pardon?
screwtchildone (12:21:59 AM): omfg
screwtchildone (12:22:05 AM): wtf
screwtchildone (12:22:13 AM): stfu!!!!
vote4dukakis88 (12:22:30 AM): It's my birthday.
screwtchildone (12:22:38 AM): happy b day david
screwtchildone (12:22:42 AM): i was mean and im sorry
screwtchildone (12:22:48 AM): kinda.

10:19pm: watched 8MM tonight.



crazy fucking movie.

2:24pm: im a star now.
kinda cool....


called up squizz on xm radio...

cool people talked to em about shows for a while then they played me talking on xm.


people heard me from coast to coast.


im a huge star now.

2:02pm: yep.
good song.

FORT MINOR LYRICS

"Cigarettes"

Man I love this rap game
Mainly cuz its cool
To add a little spice to the life you've been through
Everyone exaggerates a tiny little bit
To make that shit sound more gangster than it really is
You cant appear weak man
We wanna hear street
Wanna hear you spit your thug over this here beat
Dont take it as sarcastic
I can't get enough
Im telling you
You can call my bluff
If it's not rough, then I really don't need it
I'm not even ashamed
I got too much reality thats filling up my brain
so sell me on that chronic, I'm addicted to the game
Suck it up like a cigarette, light it up

Its just like a cigarette, its something that I do
Once in awhile but between me and you
Its just like a cigarette Nobody's really fooled
I dont want the truth, I wanna feel fucking cool

Let me tell you something that I realized tonight
My hip hop radio is like marlboro lights
They're both selling stories and they sound about the same
Cigarettes say their safe, wrappers claim they really bang
We dont care if it's true when we lay the money down
We don't believe the words, we just love the way they sound
They're acting like we're idiots, They're lying to our face
Maybe we are idiots, we buy it anyway

I'm runnin out to get the next rapper's CD
Just suckin up the guns, drugs, and misogyny
The same way that I suck up all the stories
When I breathe that little bit of death supposedly cancer-free and
Everything they say's got the truth twisted up
But twisted up's what I want man, I can't get enough
Cuz even though we know it's all just a big bluff
We just light another up, what
We don't give a fuck

Its just like a cigarette, its something that I do
Once in awhile but between me and you
Its just like a cigarette Nobody's really fooled
I dont want the truth, I wanna feel fucking cool

Its just like a cigarette, its something that I do
Over and over but between me and you
Its just like a cigarette Nobody's really fooled
I dont want the truth, I wanna feel fucking cool

Listen to the words, Listen for awhile
Lip Service radio, dont touch the dial
If you're in the car
Turn up the track man
Give the whole neighborhood some second hand rap

Matter of fact
Listen to the words, Listen for awhile
Lip Service radio, dont touch the dial
If you're in the car
Turn up the track man
Give the whole neighborhood some second hand rap

Its just like a cigarette, its something that I do
Once in awhile but between me and you
Its just like a cigarette Nobody's really fooled
I dont want the truth, I wanna feel fucking cool

Its just like a cigarette, its something that I do
Over and over but between me and you
Its just like a cigarette Nobody's really fooled
I dont want the truth, I wanna feel fucking cool